I tell my own soul....

Until I am secure in the love of God.
I will not be secure in this world.


May Your Perfect Love come; wash over me.
Like a blanket, wrap around me.
Cover me.
Dress me.

I will not be afraid of the terror at night.
I will not be afraid of rejection.
I will not be afraid of what will become.

I know I can put my full confidence in You.
Your plan is good and You are good.

Secure me in Your love.
Root and Ground me deeply.

from below the ground

The damage has been done. There is nothing bad about it.

Only hard.  It’s that simple inch toward something more,

something better, yet somehow along the way it is exposing

wounds and fears that I did not know still existed.

There is something You promised in the midst of it all. Some

what of a deep, deep treasure. Something I cannot deny and

something I have to cling to – in hope. In faith. It is Your promise

and it is unchanging. It is Your promise and You have always been

faithful. It is Your promise and You will walk with me and hold me

through it.

Your promise of life.

This season – You are.

This moment – it’s all You.

In brokenness, in fear, in confusion, in the place of wounds,

in fear, in fear, in fear…… Your hand guides me.  Sustains me.

All the days of my life.

You can remove all the mountains in my way – if You wanted

to… and even so, You have given me the authority to do so just

the same.

Every step, no matter how painful or hard, is a step of Your

faithful promise.

Life.

I say I must biggie on – one more step.

One at a time.

Life.

The laboring for life.

All is well; all shall be well.

This is good & this is God.

I will not be afraid; You are in control. I will not be afraid.

I trust in You. Faithful throughout the ages.

You do not change. You remain the same.

Creator of Life.

Maker of Life.

Giver of Life.

It is Your promise.

a calm moment on the porch swing of a dreamt-up country home on a perfectly, breezy day where the kites fly in the sky and provoke deep...

I’ve been kind of down on myself lately. I’m not for sure why. 

I think there is a bit of insecurity underlying this new adventure 

I've been on lately. It’s amazing how if you will just take a step 

back and breathe for a sec, clear your mind & refocus, attune 

to Trust, and not allow negative thoughts to dominate or have a

 place in your mind – how quickly things will begin to flourish 

again in the light of enjoyment and laughter with a confidence 

and guarantee that you are really and truly a beautiful person 

that offers life to another.

A few months ago, my dear friend wrote to me just to compliment

a photograph he saw of me.  His words spoke of a confidence he 

saw in me though at times he was certain I had my doubts. I remember 

the words I replied to him well….. They were said in a time in my life 

where I chose to forfeit all rights to speak down upon myself. My words, 

though I meant them, were still words I was telling myself to do.

 Something not quite accomplished yet.  Something spoken from 

a vision and goal I was relentless in succeeding in.

     “Your words are life to a girl who is fighting with every breath 

           to push past the whirlwind of lies this world has to offer…

                                           I will win.”

Lack of quiet. Built up emotion from all things good and some things 

hard. Lack of full understanding. Lack of sleep.  How fast things can 

progress or change.  How my mind cannot seem to fully comprehend 

the ways of my heart.

These are the things that leave me in doubt. (especially the latter.)

Yet here on this new adventure, whatever it is called or however long or 

short it lasts, I think of just a few things to keep reminding myself….

Polaroid photo print by Cori Kindred. 

Thank you, God, for such a brilliant season of laughter!

And Your love that is unfailing; surpassing anything that

makes sense.  Your Word truly has become a ballad of

love that has captivated me through and through. You

are beautiful. So beautiful