He has thwarted me on all sides.
It seems that whether it would be friends or
a social life, exercise, eating, or even daydreams...
He will not let me run to anything but Him.
"You shall not make for yourself an idol in the
form of anything in heaven above or on the earth
beneath or in the waters below. You shall not
bow down to them or worship them; for I, the
LORD your God, am a jealous God..." Exodus 20:4-5a
It seems He has only allowed me access
to certain people. Blessed me with them,
rather. Moments of sincere, honest, painful
conversation that bring life and healing on
both sides - yet provoke me to the depths of
my heart: wounds and laughter. He has become
so absolutely selective with who He allows in my
life and to share my time with. I know He is
protecting me - it is Sacred.
He wants me. My whole heart. He wants to heal
the depths of this rugged mess and unveil my
eyes to see Truth and Love.
His thwarting is His bid for freedom and blessing
and life and laughter for me. Oh, He loves me!