He wants me. All of me. In His eyes, I have always been perfect. His desire burns for me.
Work ends. The same journey home begins. The wind down. The frustration of small town drivers who pretend they know what city driving is like... But this time, I forget about the routine. He is calling me.
The longest route home has become my new dream... My heart floods with so much to say to my King. Like a friend I haven't quite opened up to in awhile....it all pours out so easily. Every word drenched in desperation for Him - for His presence, His purpose, His love.
Forever changed by His love. How much easier could it be said? I watched the sun set through the wide open sky - deep colours that caught my attention reminding me of Your unchanging faithfulness. I have been ruined. I will never want another the way I desire You. I know when I need peace - You are Peace. When I need to settle down - You become my Hiding Place. You meet me - before words leave my mouth. You hear the deep of me long before it surfaces.
I know in You - I am standing on solid ground. I know in You - I am beautiful. I know in You - nothing else matters. Though things don't go my way. Though I do not half- the-time understand. Though I become insecure. Though I fear.
You make my world secure. You make my world calm. You call my mess beautiful. Only You. You have ruined me.
Find me here in my insecurities. Where my mind and heart and body can't seem to rest. Find me here amidst the noise and chaos. Find me here... ruin me with Your love.
Anyone know any good music that you can cry to? I am so in need of a good cry - too, too much has happened all at once. Though I trust the goodness of Father - I am still trying to process this turn in my life. So deep in my soul, I know and trust the faithfulness of God. Inwardly, my words are few. I don't know if I have any....
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And what is with DESIRE? It burns deep. There are moments I do not know how to bear such a big burden. DESIRE. It leaves me speechless and at the same time - moved to intercession. Intercession with no words. Probably more powerful than I could fathom.
I am at a loss on all sides. I trust the timing of words again. I trust my life (and my families lives) to Your hands, King. Meet me here in this desert.